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this was supposed to be posted last night but blogger wasnt working
>> she's better off sleeping on the floor, cuz she fell right off when all you said you know its okay to just want more... :*(
yeah.. i told jb this morning that i was gonna go out with someone else.. but i couldnt get a guy if i tried. the only people who like me are like my friends and i dont wanna screw up my friendship with them. cuz i know i'll screw up the relationship. i always do. all i know is thursday is gonna be really sad.. everyone is gonna have stuff from their boyfriends and the people who like them and im not gonna have anything. and i'm gonna be alone like always. i'd not go to school if it werent for the fact they are selling flowers, and i like flowers so i want to buy myself one. cuz god knows no one else will buy me anything. sigh. whatever. i hope tonight doesnt end up like last nnight.. i had to like play video games at 2 in the morning in order to keep myself busy so i wouldnt hurt myself or something. im so fucking pathetic. jb told me that no one wants to die. well i really do. i have nothing to live for. the only thing that kept me going were all the promises he made to me.. and now they are gone. theres no point. ask any of my friends.. i used to be so miserable, then i started going out with him and i got so happy.. happier than i ever was. so u can imagine how crushed i am now... no one really knows im sad unless they read this because in school im always hyper.. but i have to be so i dont cry. again with the patheticness. sigh. and here come the tears already, its only 9:45. this is gonna be a long night.. i havent even started any of my homework. i've been out all afternoon and michelle just left. i bought myself a pink puppy stuffed animal. and a card for jb. im gonna mail it to him i guess. i wanted to buy myself roses but im pathetic enough. and i think jake is in love with the new puppy. thats sad, even jake can get a significant other. (no offence to jake.. its just that hes a stuffed animal and all...) me and michelle drove everywhere all afternoon. we went through wilbraham and east longmeadow and what not.. the whole time we were playing the dude ranch cd (blink 182).. i cant believe how many of those songs describe exactly how i feel. its amazing. "why leave when you claim it is love, but why stay when you're not the only one."....and there is more but i dont wanna get into it. the whole car ride i wanted to cry, and i did a little bit, but i really didnt want to cuz i didnt want michelle to see me cry. oh wells.. we saw pat. sharon will be jealous, lol. his friend made fun of michelle for her new found glory hoodie. asshole. oh yeah, and my boyfriend Yotsiri from thialand is still in my pocket lol. sigh. and yes thats his real name. it says so right on the picture. well it did, but i cut it off. my art teacher is gonna be pissed at me cuz all i did was look through the national geographic magazines and laugh at the pictures and make up things for them to say. the sub gave us an assignment but it was just too boring so i did that. and sharon read harley like a person. thats a good book. i have like tests and what not tomorrow.. that kinda sucks.. oh well. i went from talking to like 8 people (all guys.. no chicks talk to me anymore lol cept for like alie, anna, sharon and michelle) to none. how nice. and none of them said goodbye. maybe they should have because it may be the last time. you never know. aww shit my label is smudged. it says heart broken. and there is a heart between heart and broken. and its around my wrist.its pretty cool i guess. its so funny how i like cant let go lol. its sad really. im noticing that as i look around my room. i have two framed pictures of jb.. a shirt.. numerous stuffed animals.. notes.. neckalace.. and all that other stuff. and they are all just sitting around my room. no wonder i cant get over him.. everything else in my room reminds me of him tho.. i'd have to burn my house down and from here to like dairy mart in order to not see things that remind me of him. and even then millions of things would. u could probably say anything and i could relate it to him somehow. sigh. i feel so stupid. why cant i just stop liking him.. nothing is ever gonna happen again :( its all over and i can't just get that through my head and move on. cuz i do still love him, more than anything ever. and i really wish i didnt. cuz then this whole kelly thing wouldnt hurt so bad. its like wanting someone so bad and watching them want someone else.. not knowing if they are thinking about you when they're kissing you.. or not knowing if when you're crying over them if they are even thinking of you in the slighest..... and you can tell that i really do love him especially because the fact that i dont hate her because he likes her i hate her because she made him cry that day.. and thats a no-no.. ugh. blah blah blah no one fucking cares about you're bitching and whining savannah so u might as well stop. yep. so im gonna go. because i can't keep thinking about how pathetic i am. i just need to go to sleep. and i probably wont for a few hours. so that kinda sucks really bad. oh well. bye.
>> she's better off sleeping on the floor, cuz she fell right off when all you said you know its okay to just want more... :*(
yeah.. i told jb this morning that i was gonna go out with someone else.. but i couldnt get a guy if i tried. the only people who like me are like my friends and i dont wanna screw up my friendship with them. cuz i know i'll screw up the relationship. i always do. all i know is thursday is gonna be really sad.. everyone is gonna have stuff from their boyfriends and the people who like them and im not gonna have anything. and i'm gonna be alone like always. i'd not go to school if it werent for the fact they are selling flowers, and i like flowers so i want to buy myself one. cuz god knows no one else will buy me anything. sigh. whatever. i hope tonight doesnt end up like last nnight.. i had to like play video games at 2 in the morning in order to keep myself busy so i wouldnt hurt myself or something. im so fucking pathetic. jb told me that no one wants to die. well i really do. i have nothing to live for. the only thing that kept me going were all the promises he made to me.. and now they are gone. theres no point. ask any of my friends.. i used to be so miserable, then i started going out with him and i got so happy.. happier than i ever was. so u can imagine how crushed i am now... no one really knows im sad unless they read this because in school im always hyper.. but i have to be so i dont cry. again with the patheticness. sigh. and here come the tears already, its only 9:45. this is gonna be a long night.. i havent even started any of my homework. i've been out all afternoon and michelle just left. i bought myself a pink puppy stuffed animal. and a card for jb. im gonna mail it to him i guess. i wanted to buy myself roses but im pathetic enough. and i think jake is in love with the new puppy. thats sad, even jake can get a significant other. (no offence to jake.. its just that hes a stuffed animal and all...) me and michelle drove everywhere all afternoon. we went through wilbraham and east longmeadow and what not.. the whole time we were playing the dude ranch cd (blink 182).. i cant believe how many of those songs describe exactly how i feel. its amazing. "why leave when you claim it is love, but why stay when you're not the only one."....and there is more but i dont wanna get into it. the whole car ride i wanted to cry, and i did a little bit, but i really didnt want to cuz i didnt want michelle to see me cry. oh wells.. we saw pat. sharon will be jealous, lol. his friend made fun of michelle for her new found glory hoodie. asshole. oh yeah, and my boyfriend Yotsiri from thialand is still in my pocket lol. sigh. and yes thats his real name. it says so right on the picture. well it did, but i cut it off. my art teacher is gonna be pissed at me cuz all i did was look through the national geographic magazines and laugh at the pictures and make up things for them to say. the sub gave us an assignment but it was just too boring so i did that. and sharon read harley like a person. thats a good book. i have like tests and what not tomorrow.. that kinda sucks.. oh well. i went from talking to like 8 people (all guys.. no chicks talk to me anymore lol cept for like alie, anna, sharon and michelle) to none. how nice. and none of them said goodbye. maybe they should have because it may be the last time. you never know. aww shit my label is smudged. it says heart broken. and there is a heart between heart and broken. and its around my wrist.its pretty cool i guess. its so funny how i like cant let go lol. its sad really. im noticing that as i look around my room. i have two framed pictures of jb.. a shirt.. numerous stuffed animals.. notes.. neckalace.. and all that other stuff. and they are all just sitting around my room. no wonder i cant get over him.. everything else in my room reminds me of him tho.. i'd have to burn my house down and from here to like dairy mart in order to not see things that remind me of him. and even then millions of things would. u could probably say anything and i could relate it to him somehow. sigh. i feel so stupid. why cant i just stop liking him.. nothing is ever gonna happen again :( its all over and i can't just get that through my head and move on. cuz i do still love him, more than anything ever. and i really wish i didnt. cuz then this whole kelly thing wouldnt hurt so bad. its like wanting someone so bad and watching them want someone else.. not knowing if they are thinking about you when they're kissing you.. or not knowing if when you're crying over them if they are even thinking of you in the slighest..... and you can tell that i really do love him especially because the fact that i dont hate her because he likes her i hate her because she made him cry that day.. and thats a no-no.. ugh. blah blah blah no one fucking cares about you're bitching and whining savannah so u might as well stop. yep. so im gonna go. because i can't keep thinking about how pathetic i am. i just need to go to sleep. and i probably wont for a few hours. so that kinda sucks really bad. oh well. bye.
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